Terri Is Sick #10

While I have some more ideas for potential virus themed caps (I'm sure this won't be the last) I thought I would bring this strand to a close with a nice round number and a crossdressing nurse caption.

This was originally created for Chrono180 on Rachel's Haven.

A Naughty Nurse for Halloween (2012)

Terri Is Sick #8

We've looked at viruses in various forms but how about caregivers and the medical profession?

Naughty Nurse is another one on the crossdressing fantasy list although it's not one I've had particularly but given the chance why not? A sexy nurse costume with some white stockings and heels would be a lot of fun. Looking through my back catalougue and it seems I've done more nurse themed caps than I thought I had so I might add those to this little series.

The below caption was first created for Evie over on Rachel's Haven and uses her wonderful Role With It concept. This is one of my favourite caption concepts and as you all know I love playing around with roles and identities. The basic idea was based around a wooden box which contained cards with roles such as 'Homewrecker' and 'Party Girl'. The players would then grab some clothes to become that role and - suprise, suprise - they would morph into that 'role'.

Enjoy!

Naughty Nurse Evie (2012)

Cheerleaders

Well, nothing to report this week clothes-wise. I had my eye on a blue Christmassy looking skirt for 99p and a purple Clara dress that looks like it may be too small for me and there's no changing room in the shop anyway...but I still want it. Also, I mentioned my Clueless cosplay earlier and I've seen some wonderful photos of the progress this week. This is something I've wanted to do for a long time. 

Anyway, from one high school movie to a very American fantasy - cheerleaders. There are a couple of reasons I thought I would write a little about this today and one is that I've just started watching the third part of Chilling Adventures of Sabrina. This certainly is a go to fantasy for many especially wearing the uniform with the flippy skirt, dancing around, singing and chanting (perhaps cheekily giving everyone a glimpse of your panties) and imaginging you're one of the popular girls. Am I the only one who wished they made the guys wear the skirts as well? When I was younger male cheerleaders were an intoxicating idea, I mean really they let us do that? Really? Oh...maybe not. Just a t-shirt and trousers huh. Any chance of a uniform like one of the girls? No? Damn! 

Not that I ever tried out or anything; we never really had that sort of thing in UK schools. Not in my day anyway. Cheerleading is a frequent caption topic for me although I'm not sure I've done one for a while now however I did want to concentrate on one in particular. 

I wanted to put up a caption I did for the Haven caption contest back in October 2015 which had the theme of Heroes and Inspirations. Below is a little potted history of some of the people and events that have led me to where I am today all wrapped up in a cheerleader caption. This is probably the most personal cpation I've ever written and one of the ones I'm most proud of. Enjoy!

Cheerleader (2015)

 

Fancy

I'm probably very behind the times regarding todays popular hit parade but I heard about the video for this song a while ago and after having a still pop up in a picture search I decided to give it a shot.

The song is Fancy by Iggy Azalea featuring Charli XCX and is inspired by the movie Clueless. The video is from YouTube

I've spoken before about my love for Clueless and I'm glad to see scenes recreated for this video. Regarding the song, it's not normally my thing but I found it quite catchy after a few listens and for a tune about rich party girls it's great that they chose to homage something like Clueless rather than the usual kind of rap video content. It really gels with the subject of the song and, rather than just a feel, it heavily references particular scenes from the movie.

Growing up with it it feels odd to see Clueless referenced and held up as a classic but I suppose it was girls my age that fell in love with it back in 1995 especially the look. I know that if I was a teenage girl back then, I would have been hooked by it and there is still something sexy about knee socks. Many of the outfits are recreated well and of course there's Cher's yellow plaid suit and Iggy definitely wears it well. As I've said before, this is a dream outfit of mine. If I were to achieve one thing through cross dressing it would be to wear that outfit (probably at a fancy dress party) and feel like a spoiled 90s teen princess for an evening.

Womens Department

Hello all, a little late again tonight. One more day and I'm off work for Christmas which will be a relief because I've been rushing around trying to get things done. Everyone seems to be off Christmas Eve, still at least the trains will be relatively clear and the office will be virtually deserted.

Anyway, I've been thinking about The Apprentice again and one of the guys, Daniel, looking extremely uncomfortable amongst all the tights in a shop. Not manly enough I suppose. I know that feeling but I'm not sure why it happens. It happened to me in a shop today. Surely if this is my 'thing' then I would be more pleased and relaxed. Maybe it was my mother teasing me so many years ago or maybe I'm just scared that someone will see me looking too closely and give me an odd look.

It happens all the time when I'm in shops. I never like to linger around the more feminine clothing, I'll take a look of course but only very briefly. No-one's ever made a comment though even the couple of time I've bought a skirt and some tights. I expect the assistants just thought I was buying something for a partner. Again, it comes down to confidence even if it's just to look through the clothes never mind actually picking something out and trying it on or buying it. I saw a lovely dress in a shop recently and my mind races. What would my size be? Should I buy it? Will I have the confidence to buy it? When would I wear it and if I don't is there any point? Is it just better ordering by internet and keeping things to myself.

Still it would be nice to own some more clothing, A little New Year inspiration

Harry Potter Cosplay #2

Well, overall my weekend was full of ups and downs but despite initial nervousness I loved dressing up again. 

My weekend didn't get off to a good start really. This time I decided to try shaving my legs again. Now, I normally use an electric razor for all my shaving needs because I'm the type of person that would doubtless end up hacking chunks out of my face if I used the traditional kind. The electric razor does take a while now (not that it's a proper Ladyshave or something like that) so I decided to give the traditional kind a shot to see if it would do a better job. I ended up cutting my thumb while trying to clean some hairs from it and at the time it looked quite bad but after a few days it cleared up and I'm left with a tiny scratch now. Luckily my lift arrived and verified that it didn't warrant a visit to the hospital. All through the journey I was wondering why one side of my body seemed colder than the rest then I realised that it was because I had one leg shaved. 

I did the other one a day or so later. My costume didn't change apart from adding a couple of bracelets and swapping my black shoes for my trainers but I did feel comfortable in it perhaps due to the combination of my usual clothes and the new stuff. I got a lot of compliments though especially with my star tights so at least that's all good. At least I wasn't the only person doing that costume so I felt less nervous than usual. 

I think that's all I would like really, the freedom to wear a skirt and tights or a dress if I wished. I'm happy with my body though and doubt I would want to go as far as a wig, breastforms and make-up. I'm a lazy bitch and doubt I could keep up that level of maintenance anyway.  

Harry Potter Cosplay

Well, not exactly Harry Potter, that wouldn't be any fun at all now would it.

A couple of months ago (I think) I mentioned a Harry Potter themed cosplay and it will be happening at some point this weekend as I'm going on holiday with my friends. It started off as a loose theme of everyone dressing up as students from Hufflepuff house but a secret theme has been added: school age Nymphadora Tonks (both guys and gals). I gave it some consideration and decided to make a go of it and have spent the last couple of weeks putting a costume together. I tried it on last night and although I'm not as pleased as I was with my Amy Pond outfit, it still looked good. Speaking of Doctor Who, I'm going to another convention in December and am trying to decide what, if anything, I could do for that.

So I basically have a white shirt (normal workwear sort), pleated grey skirt, black and yellow striped socks, tights with stars on, black jumper, Hufflepuff tie and scarf. Oh, and a really cheap wand. I also bought a purple wig and wigs are something I have been thinking about a lot recently. Now, I did see a really nice layered purple one but I eschewed it for a cheaper one. Maybe I should have got the better quality but I guess I thought that would be going too far. Once again I feel very self conscious which I guess relates back to what I said in an earlier post, the average man either feels embarrassed and refuses to dress or goes at it with gusto. The crossdresser grabs every opportunity to dress but I would bet a good portion share my fear of looking like they are enjoying it too much or having their secret exposed.

I wonder if I was asked to participate because my friend wanted to feel better about crossplaying himself or maybe he thought I would enjoy it. I'm not sure which I believe or which I would prefer to be true. At the same time I fear being mocked, even light teasing really gets to me. I've played the fool too many times.

I am wishing I had bought more accessories now.

I guess I'll find out in a few days time.

My Week#5

Apologies for not updating this sooner but it's been really busy lately.

Not been in the best of health recently, I have a cold at the moment.

I have been continuing trying to talk to strangers though and mostly succeeding apart from the last couple of days. It's all an exercise in confidence building and hopefully I may get to the stage where I'm just not scared of saying things at all. There are lots of times when I've wanted to, no matter how mundane, and felt bad because I couldn't get the words out.

However there is a reason why I'm finally typing. I'm going away for a weekend with friends in a couple of months and we usually have a fancy dress thing. This year there was going to be a Harry Pottter theme and I hadn't decided whether I was taking part yet. I had a message from a friend today asking me if I was going to take part...and told me a secret cos/crossplay twist.

This has of course piqued my interest but also set me wondering why he thought I would enjoy this. Now, obviously he has been present when I have crossplayed before and saw the Amy Pond photos (BTW really enjoying this latest series) but lately I have been getting annoyed that people expect me to do this and that if it's fancy dress the of course I'll turn up in a dress. This could be my own neurosis but it's also that I don't like doing what people expect, I don't like being stereotyped or anyone thinking they now exactly how I'm going to act.

Perhaps I could just shut up and enjoy myself. Would I though or do I think that I should just because I'm a crossdresser regardless of whether I might enjoy it? It's the same kind of dilemma that I've been struggling with for many years now.

I will expand on these details at another time but or now that's been my day.

Doctor Who Cosplay

After my shenanigans last weekend, I got to thinking about other types characters I could do in the future.

Amy has some great outfits of course and very simple to do. I guess that's the attractive thing about it, the clothes don't look too out of place as some would do. That's why men love putting a black suit on: it's smart and makes you look cool and it can be passed off as James Bond, The Blues Brothers, Reservoir Dogs and countless others.

I would love to do Idris, the human form of the TARDIS, in that wonderful bluey gothy dress.

I saw Tegan's purple air stewardess uniform on sale as a fancy dress outfit a year ago and thought about that. There was also a green shirt and shorts that Rory wears in Day of the Moon, I could just cover myself with marks and that would be a pretty easy costume. I've never really thought about any of the Doctor's costumes apart from maybe David Tennant's which is pretty nice plus I have the coat. I bought it to wear as Mal Reynolds from Firefly one Halloween. The first pictures of Tennant in costume were released around that time and most people thought I was meant to be him despite the absence of a pinstripe.

I love the feminised fan costumes there are about these days too like the Dalek girls:

There are also some wonderful designs featuring the TARDIS, Cybermen and even individual Doctors. I saw one girl wearing a Tenth Doctor outfit with a pinstripe mini-skirt and another dressed as the Second Doctor albeit with a chequered kilt-like skirt with a blue shirt, black jacket and bow tie. It's wonderful that people are being so creative with the concept.  

 A T-girl friend of mine said I should do the new companion at some point. Of course that all depends on what she wears...

The Convention

Ok, yeah so I totally rocked it.

The convention was a lot of fun in the end. I saw some people I knew from previous years and they had some great guests. I even met Matt Smith, however briefly.

I wore the costume on Saturday night and I couldn't stop thinking about it all day. When the time came to put it on I didn't feel as nervous as I have previous times although as I walked down the corridors it did seem eerily quiet and I could hear every step. I still had doubts over the wig and there were so many good Amys about. I looked down at my feet and I was pretty good although looking at the full thing in the mirror my upper body seemed out of proportion with the rest. I didn't have falsies in, by the way. As always you do get the odd comment but I've always been able to handle them which is strange for me since I usually take such things very personally. "Terrifying but brilliant" was how one of the guests described me. I even met up with another 'drag Amy' and we had a few pictures taken that I believe have made it onto Twitter. Well, I kind of requested one sent to a friend of mine to cheer her up. We even had a few dances once the disco started up. Someone requested "Dude Looks Like A Lady" by Aerosmith. Can't think why...

At one point, early in the morning and through my drunken haze I saw a girl in a UNIT uniform. And reader, I married her. Actually no, I didn't even speak to her but I've always wanted to write that line. I've enjoyed the odd kiss at a convention in the past and I seem to put too much pressure on myself by hoping that it might happen again, some small morsel of romantic entanglement to convince me that I may still have a love life one day. Oh, and as for being drunk as well that was no mean feat at £4.40 a pint at the hotel but one rarely left my hand that night as I used it as a kind of crutch. I believe this was only partially down to the alcohol though; having something to hold in my hand somehow helped my nerves although, as I said, I wasn't really that nervous.

Searching back through the wilderness for my point, the dancing girl brought to mind a couple of things. Firstly, that I hadn't noticed the women in drag getting as much attention as some of us guys and I'm not sure whether I should feel a little jealous of that. Secondly, that I would rather be the Doctor's flighty assistant than a soldier any day. There were some lovely female versions of Doctor costumes around too.

Once I got back to my room I almost didn't want to take the costume off and I was really proud of myself that day. It turned out to be one of the highlights of my weekend. I have to admit to feeling quite sad, as I normally do, when I had to leave and it was all over. I've had a couple of days off and it's back to work tomorrow.

Looking back now even after the post I made yesterday, crossdressing doesn't seem as scary as it once was and I'm not sure what this means for me. Maybe I'm finally coming to terms with it.

Headband

Well, another day, another piece of feminine clothing.

I was re-watching The Time of Angels/Flesh and Stone yesterday. I don't know why I din't before and I noticed a few things. First of all the red jumper is more of a hoodie but there's no time to sort that out really. Black socks go over the tights and Amy appears to be wearing a headband too. So, I stopped into a shop on the way home from work and bought one. It's a little tight but hopefully it will also keep the wig in place. I'm still dissatisfied with its colour. I did buy a headband before to go with a cheerleader costume; it was red with a large bow on the top and looks quite cute.

I have to wonder whether if doing something like this, managing to buy something feminine every day no matter how little or large it is would be good and get me used to buying stuff like that but I'm not really sure it's something I would want to do that regularly anyway. For all my paranoia, the people in the shops probably think  it's for my wife or girlfriend. I wonder if anyone's ever thought what a kind boyfriend I am by buying this stuff for my non-existent partner.

The Complete Amy

I bought some tights today and completed my outfit. They're not quite the same colour but look nice and shiny. I tried the whole thing on quickly and I have to admit it looks really good and gives me a bit of a thrill too.

The only downside is that my wig isn't quite the same colour red; it's more of a dark red than a ginger but it's the best I could do so we'll just have to see.

Overall, I'm pretty satisfied with the outfit so far.  

Jumper!

Well, I've got my big red jumper ready for the Amy Pond thing!

Found it in a charity shop near me and it looks very nice. It was probably the hardest thing to find but now I need a ginger wig, black mini skirt and smoky grey tights. Had a look around but I haven't found anything fitting yet although I should hopefully be able to acquire the rest although the thought of going into a store and buying a black skirt makes me quite nervous so I may try to find it online.

I bought a pair of heels in a shop once and that was nerve-wracking enough but nothing really happened. I think I would prefer being served by women anyway. I bought an ice princess dress from a crossdress website a month ago and of course it wouldn't fit through my letterbox while I was at work. When I got home I found a trail of riddles left by the Post Office designed to lead me to my parcel. For a while I was a little scared I would be 'discovered' but it turned out good. I love the dress though, it fits me so well and I've worn it quite a few times now. I was persuaded by a friend in a chat room to purchase it and I'm glad I did. Maybe I'm better off just dressing for my own fantasies.  

Amy Pond Cosplay

I'm a big fan of Doctor Who and I'm going to be going to a convention soon.

They have discos and parties at night and normally I've resisted dressing up because it's not something I feel comfortable with. Never been a big fan of fancy dress which I know is an odd thing for someone calling themselves a crossdresser to say but I'll get into that another time. I have dressed up occasionally, sometimes as a girl, but either way I feel I stick out a lot.

I wasn't going to dress up at all but then I had the idea of doing Amy Pond. All I would really need is a big jumper, black mini skirt, tights, Chucks and a ginger wig. Probably the most normal dressing up I will have done. So now I'm on the look out for a few bits and feeling a little excited about it. A big part of doing it before was the attention I get from girls. A drunken man in a dress in Ibiza once told me that. At least it's an icebreaker and better than standing in a corner moping by yourself.

I used to go to Buffy conventions years ago and see the same guy there in the same black dress and tights every night. I wondered if it was the only time he ever got to dress and I hoped I didn't end up like that. That does sound a little mean spirited but that's what I recall thinking at the time. At least the guy had the guts to do what he wanted and more power to him while I just felt self conscious.

Not that I have the body to pull stuff like that off anyway and these days I worry a lot about my weight. Still, a chunky red jumper may be for the best then and by chance I bought a pair of blue Chucks the other day.

Anyway, thanks to everyone who has been reading so far and I have 2 followers! Yay!