In addition to thinking about going on holiday I did think about going to a dressing service while I have some time off. Pay for a couple of hours and get a fully feminine makeover. As you know, for me it's mainly about the clothes and the freedom to wear what I want. Make-up has never much been something I want to experiment with, I'm too much of a slob for that, but it would be nice to get the full works from a professional: wig, make-up and a nice dress. Maybe it might change my mind about a few things.
I'm still scared going into shops and looking through clothes. I should just go back to shopping on the internet to expand my wardrobe. I saw a wonderful dress in the window of a charity shop yesterday. It wouldn't have fit me but wow I would have loved to try it on or wear something similar.
Anyway, that led me onto a little fantasy I've been having recently regarding this. I keep thinking of a scene, undertaken while I'm at the dressing service, so it's all staged purely for my benefit. I would enter a sitting room dressed a bit 1950s in a Lindy Bop dress, matching cardigan, heels, tights and hair styled in a particular way with a large headband and clutching a handbag. I would join a couple of other (GG) girls and our 'men' would be dressed in suits sitting on the sofa talking (now these could be real men or maybe even women in drag. I like a woman in a tie, very sexy, which I expect says something interesting about my tastes). I would gossip with the girls before being called over by my man and sitting by his side. He would ask me to fetch things for him and generally be a subservient wife. Not sure how it would go from there. Perhaps we leave and I wave goodbye to my new friends. Might have to think more about that one.
Monday 25 May 2015
Sunday 24 May 2015
Update: May 2015
Hello everyone,
I have been meaning to write something recently so here is a kind of omnibus edition of stuff.
I haven't really had a good month at work and had a very bad week at the beginning of the month. Things are starting to even out now though but I'm in a profession in which there's so much negativity that I don't know if I can put up with it any more. Never mind the fact that I'm drowning in work. The boss seems happy though and I've begun to get a better attitude to it thanks to a friend of mine. I've started leaving earlier and that's been a boost.
I'm beginning to think that when I split up with my girlfriend that it was a greater knock to me than I thought it was. I'm still expecting to look down and find a text from her and the issue of sex still worries me. It's like being a horny teenager again, I feel a desire to go out and find someone to have sex with just to prove that I can. It's an odd thing to say in a place like this but I don't feel like a man. I feel I've lost whatever masculinity I had. Of course I know that sex isn't the be all and end all but having never had much of it I really was looking forward to getting into it with a partner. It's like fixing something. If the TV breaks I must try to fix it straight away or whatever device is on the turn this week. I'm the same when I come back from holiday, I must unpack my stuff within a few hours to get things back to normal; to maintain the status quo (nothing to do with Rick Parfitt) and this is something I feel I need to fix for my own peace of mind. I had over a year with her and I still couldn't get it right but then I did get the feeling that I would have more time. I guess that's another thing I resent her for, throwing me back into dating and forcing myself to try and socialise and chat up women again. I was supposed to be rid of all that.
The summer is upon us so I might go away for a holiday soon. Last year I realised that I wanted a bit more out of a holiday than seeing the inside of a convention centre. Not sure where to go though but it would be nice to get some sun. I'm also thinking of going to Cardiff, see some Doctor Who locations at some point this year.
I have been meaning to write something recently so here is a kind of omnibus edition of stuff.
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I haven't really had a good month at work and had a very bad week at the beginning of the month. Things are starting to even out now though but I'm in a profession in which there's so much negativity that I don't know if I can put up with it any more. Never mind the fact that I'm drowning in work. The boss seems happy though and I've begun to get a better attitude to it thanks to a friend of mine. I've started leaving earlier and that's been a boost.
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I'm beginning to think that when I split up with my girlfriend that it was a greater knock to me than I thought it was. I'm still expecting to look down and find a text from her and the issue of sex still worries me. It's like being a horny teenager again, I feel a desire to go out and find someone to have sex with just to prove that I can. It's an odd thing to say in a place like this but I don't feel like a man. I feel I've lost whatever masculinity I had. Of course I know that sex isn't the be all and end all but having never had much of it I really was looking forward to getting into it with a partner. It's like fixing something. If the TV breaks I must try to fix it straight away or whatever device is on the turn this week. I'm the same when I come back from holiday, I must unpack my stuff within a few hours to get things back to normal; to maintain the status quo (nothing to do with Rick Parfitt) and this is something I feel I need to fix for my own peace of mind. I had over a year with her and I still couldn't get it right but then I did get the feeling that I would have more time. I guess that's another thing I resent her for, throwing me back into dating and forcing myself to try and socialise and chat up women again. I was supposed to be rid of all that.
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The summer is upon us so I might go away for a holiday soon. Last year I realised that I wanted a bit more out of a holiday than seeing the inside of a convention centre. Not sure where to go though but it would be nice to get some sun. I'm also thinking of going to Cardiff, see some Doctor Who locations at some point this year.
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Finally: Tagging. When the Haven got a new tagging system I have to admit I didn't see much use for it but a lot of people have been using it so I've been trying it recently, going back and tagging my old captions. It's been quite a fun game for myself. While out walking I would recall a caption and try and think what tags I would need for it, what the story entails: TG change? Crossdressing? Brother to Sister? Boyfriend to BFF? Personality change? I hope to go through all my work but I've not long finished updating all my links after the Haven's data loss so this one may have to wait.
Thursday 7 May 2015
Lingerie for Men
Apologies for not posting anything recently (if there's anyone who actually gives a damn about my digital musings). I've had a lot of things to put down but haven't had the impetus to sit and do it...and today is no exception.
Anyway, I spottted this on MSN earlier and it tickled me: http://www.msn.com/en-gb/lifestyle/style/sexy-lingerie-for-men-is-now-a-thing-apparently/ar-BBjgen.
An Australian company is now producing sexy lingerie for men. Lovely idea and wow I love the set in that first picture but I have to wonder what use a man has for a bra unless you have moobs that are out of control. Still, looks great though and it's nice that someone somewhere is producing clothes like this for men.
Anyway, I spottted this on MSN earlier and it tickled me: http://www.msn.com/en-gb/lifestyle/style/sexy-lingerie-for-men-is-now-a-thing-apparently/ar-BBjgen.
An Australian company is now producing sexy lingerie for men. Lovely idea and wow I love the set in that first picture but I have to wonder what use a man has for a bra unless you have moobs that are out of control. Still, looks great though and it's nice that someone somewhere is producing clothes like this for men.
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