The Girl

Now, I have bleated a lot about romance over the past year I've been on here and even signed up to a dating website earlier this year.

I didn't end up meeting someone through it however I have started seeing someone for the past month. I met her on another site, not a dating one, I belong to. We're taking it slow at the moment but we have been out a few times and  it's going really well so far. I always wondered what I would be like in a relationship and at the moment it's making me more worried. I worry about whether I'm too cold or too clingy or whether I say enough or whether I'm doing things right.

I get nervous about her meeting my friends. The first night we were out we bumped into someone quite by accident. He's really chatty and so is she so I thought that, like so many other times, that was it for me. We did how ever walk back to the train station together and shared a kiss. She seems really into me which is a whole new thing I'm not really sure how to take. I guess I'm not used to someone being physically attracted to me. I wish I could live in the moment and enjoy it but I seem to live in either the past or the future, always looking back at what has happened and trying to predict what will happen. It's like I'm waiting for her to turn round and tell me it's over. I've known friends who have broken up with partners years down the line simply because they said 'I don't love you anymore' one day but then I've also known people who have been together for years with few ups and downs.

Anyway, hopefully we'll just see how it goes.