Amy Returns

Hello everyone,

I went to a convention yesterday with some friends of mine. I was considering various cosplays out of my existing ideas to try and had the idea of bringing my Amy Pond crossplay back. The night before I did feel quite positive about it all and I think my nerves were mainly about where and when to change. I knew that once I got past that hurdle then everything would be fine. Although there was a dedicated cosplay change area it was a little, um, intimate so I ended up getting changed in the toilets.

The day was definitely helped by the fact that I had some friends attending in cosplay too (and very good cosplay at that). I didn't really feel nervous at all but I was still a bit self-conscious. This was mainly due to the wig I had and it's a shame I didn't consider changing it before but as ever my procrastination meant that I didn't decide on what, if anything, I would be doing. I knew that if I didn't do any cosplay at all then I would feel rubbish the whole day especially walking round with my friends. I nearly did a Wash (from Firefly) cosplay just for the sake of not walking round in my normal clothes. Have I said the word 'cosplay' enough yet?

Anyway, I got a good enough reaction. It wasn't overwhelming but at least it was more positive than not. I stand by the outfit but I think it was just the wig that bothered me. I do cringe a bit when I look back at the photos now. I think I need to up my game a bit if I want to do this properly.

A good day overall though.

May Update

Apologies once again for not writing sooner but a bit of lethargy has set in. Work has also been very busy and extra stressful recently.

Bought some new clothes recently including a nice Tartan mini skirt and a grey sparkly jumper which has become my new favourite thing. Probably more as well but I can't remember. Need more tops though and dresses and I need to try shoes at some point. Lately I've been veering towards wanting to try the full thing with wigs and make-up and everything.

There is a very mixed cosplay update too. I started constructing my Cher costume...which has ultimately failed at this point at least. The suit I bought was too small (although the skirt sorta fits) and the cardigan I bought was too small. Bought a white top and white knee high socks though which seem to be fine. I can't lie that it's disappointing but I hope to give it another shot soon. I also got a red Star Trek dress which looks lovely. Now all I need for that is a pair of boots.

April Update

Well it hasn't been the best month so far.

I've just had a very trying week at work and one that's just shot my confidence to shit although it has left me thinking that if I can suffer through some of the people that I do then maybe going out fully 'dressed' wouldn't be as daunting as I think it would be. I almost want to do it just to 'get it over with' so to speak. I know I've done it at conventions and parties before but taking a walk in public is a bit different to that. I'm wondering if I should take it slow at first and build up. Baby steps. Perhaps try a top or jumper, something that people might not look twice at, before trying a skirt and tights. Then again I wouldn't be inclined to go full wig and make-up although I've been thinking a lot about that recently. Perhaps I need to do some experimenting. I did see a man on the tube recently with a long skirt on and full beard. Have to say I respected him.

Not bought anything new recently (apart from the denim skirt which I think I've mentioned) but I've also been coming back to a few old cosplay ideas too. The Star Trek dress and one of my top fantasies (as I've stated before) Cher's yellow plaid suit from Clueless. It's really only the blazer that I think I would have trouble with. It's easy enough to find a yellow plaid skirt, cardigan, white top, white knee highs and black heels. I think I've found a place to buy it though and I've been a bit excited thinking about it this weekend.

There's so much stuff I keep meaning to write but I've fallen behind again and I can't believe its been a year since I did a Quantum Leap. Hopefully more soon.

Pink Library #8: The City

This is one of Tainted Sins stories and is set in a diner which is effectively held hostage by a God like being called Howard Clark.

Here's the link: The City by Tainted Sins

Throughout the story, Howard makes multiple changes to many of the patrons in the diner, changing their fates as it were. One couple has their IQs reduced, the manager had his penis made into a dildo, ages are swapped, another couple decide to become strippers etc. I will warn those wanting to read this though that it does contain incest and one of the strangest transformations I've read which concerns a waitress turning into a clown and of course being unable to change back; forever wearing a red nose, rainbow wig and clown clothes. Oh, and can spray water from her nipples at will.

Actually, scratch that, the strangest transformation I've ever read is an entry in the same author's I'm Rubber, You're Glue series in which a popular girl changes into a toilet. An actual toilet. Crazy.

Anyway, the reason this story is being featured is down to the transformation of a man called Roger into a "teenybopper drag queen" (to quote the story). Howard starts off giving him memories of stealing his 16 year old daughter Stephanie's bra and panties (bright green, wonderfully showing through his white shirt) and then the desire to dress like a sexy teen. Roger is then given all his daughter's style and dress sense; suddenly appearing dressed in a short skirt, thong, immaculate blonde hair and pink nails and cut off black t-shirt which wonderfully has "Daddy's Girl" across the front in diamond lettering.

Due to her fashion sense being stolen or 'donated' to her father, Stephanie is made into a styleless dork in a Santa sweater and Spongebob boxers unable to dress any better no matter how much she wants or tries to. Roger is then fired for his work attire and I have to wonder what happens to him. Does he always have the style of a teenage girl or will it mature over time?

The rest of the story is fun if you like those sort of changes and, I won't lie, but some made me uneasy but this portion and its description of Roger's new attire really captured my imagination.

Blondie and Beyond

I had intended to buy a dress today but unfortunately the shop was closed however I did end up purchasing a nice denim skirt from another shop which is something I've wanted to get and thankfully it fit. I did start getting a bit nervous in the shop again though. No matter how much I tell myself I should buy things if I want to, the nerves still end up setting in. We do have only one life after all trouble is that doesn't help me in convincing myself as much as it should.

I was watching a documentary on Blondie and the making of their Parallel Lines album last night and it dislodged a few memories. I was really into the group in my late teens which coincided with their late 1990s resurgence. I even went to see them in concert in 1999 (or possibly 1998) and I remember a Vulture t-shirt being on sale. this t-shirt was worn by singer Debbie Harry back in their late 1970s/early 80s heyday and I really wanted one but I was just too scared to buy one because I saw it as female clothing. However I later saw videos of the male members of the band wearing it. Perhaps I might see if I can buy one now.

Here's a picture of Debbie Harry in the T-shirt

Culture Vulture
Source: emikokal.tumblr.com

Just as a quick P.S there was recently a Doctor Who comic cover parodying the Parallel Lines cover featuring the Twelfth Doctor, Clara Oswald and The Silence which looked wonderful.

February Update

To be honest, it's not been the best month so far.

I haven't bought any new clothes and the only item I did buy didn't fit. I had my eye on a dress but that went once I returned to the store. I saw a handbag last week though I was tempted by though which is something  haven't thought about before. Would I use or have use for a handbag? Is it worth getting anyway?

I did see a dress in M&S though which had lots of circles on it. Basically it was a roundal dress and by roundal I mean the circles on the walls of the TARDIS for those unfamiliar with the term. There are quite a few cosplay idea running through my mind right now.

I've been meaning to write about a new site I found recently which everybody probably knew about anyway but it's The Changing Mirror and is well worth checking out for TF fiction. Not all M2F but various transformations. I've spoken before about my love of Wyrdey's stories and in turn that led me to those of Tainted Sins and the site. I've really been enjoying Tainted Sins stories and will probably post more about them on here soon and in particular there are a few new tropes I've been enjoying such as the idea of giving a grown woman the thoughts and feelings of a 13 year old boy.

Tainted Sins

It's not been the best month at work though but I have started trying to lose a bit of weight too.

January Update

It's been an odd January so far. I feel a bit better than I did earlier on in the month and I guess things have evened out at work. I still feel snowed under though but I think it's par for the course.

I bought a nice top a couple of weeks ago but sadly it didn't fit that well. I have seen a dress though, maroon with white hearts on it, that I'm thinking of buying. I am a little worried that I seem to be purchasing stuff from the same shop. I was thinking today that maybe if I did go out dressed it would actually take some pressure off.i wouldn't be so worried about people 'figuring me out'. i would just be out there. Life is so short after all and it's not as though I have a family to worry about.

I do have some stuff built up that i want to write about, it's just finding the time to sit down and do it properly.