Cosplay Update

Ok, so I'm going to another convention in a week and I was going to go as Amy again. Then  they announced that one of the party themes would be Clara Oswald and her many faces through the Doctor's timeline and now I have no idea what I'm going to wear. This is a wonderful idea but I feel I have too little time to put something together. I still think the red dress from Asylum of the Daleks would be good but I have no idea where to get one.

I did go shopping tonight but didn't find anything and once more I felt terrible going in and out a lot of clothes shops. Shouldn't I be enjoying it? Perhaps I'm scared i'll be found out by some kind of Trannyfinder General if I stray too far into the lingerie section. Truth is, no-one probably noticed me. I don't know what I'm going to do yet but it would be a shame to pass up an opportunity like this. I do love Clara's modern style too.

New Tights

I've been thinking about getting some more tights recently and today I finally did, cunningly smuggled in with some ties. Not exclusively for the wordplay though.

Trying them on tonight I feel wonderful but a bit unhappy. I think I may have needed another size plus I have a hole in them already. Hmm I could always make more and go a bit punk rock. Still, I guess you need to try these things to learn and the more I try to wear them, the more natural it will feel and the more comfortable I'll be.

Clueless

I would now like to share with you all a film that had a tremendous effect on my development and may in fact have been my first foray into TG. Clueless (1995) starred Alicia Silverstone as Cher Horowitz, a teenager living in Beverley Hills. The film was a take on Jane Austen's Emma and one night in 1995 I went to see it. I was in my late teens and cut a lesson in school to catch the film on its last day. No-one wanted to come with me so I went alone and ended up being the only person in the cinema. Even one of the ushers came in and sat with me for a while and I felt ashamed of watching such a girlie movie.

So why did I watch it? Well it just hit something in me; the language they used and their overall look. Plus I was crushing a little on Silverstone. In the following weeks I started to draw myself as the characters from the film using their poses on the main poster - so that was basically my head on their bodies. I actually made myself sick doing it; such was my excitement that I gave myself a cold. Of course being a teenage boy I should have had another, um, outlet for that energy but I was a bit late in that area. I loved those drawings but these days I don't know what to do with them. They're hidden away in a folder and I'm torn between destroying them lest someone find them or keeping them preserved because they are pieces of my past.

Clueless (1995) main theatrical poster

In addition to the drawings I tried writing letters as Cher, using all the language and loved repeating lines from the movie into the mirror. A year later the TV series started with Rachel Blanchard making a fine replacement for Alicia Silverstone as Cher. It was quite a shock to see her later turn up in Peep Show. For the time that it was on, Clueless was my dirty little viewing secret but further exposure to that world was welcome. If I could do any cosplay at all, it would be Cher's yellow suit from the movie. I would love to wear that outfit for a while and pretend to be a hip Californian teen.

Perfect in Plaid

Last Friday I went to a quote along showing of the film and it was so much fun to be watching it on the big screen again. In the intervening years it has become such a well loved film and it will always hold a place in my heart and such a big influence in developing my desires.

Ok, so that's me audi!

One Year On

Well, well, well it's been a year since I started this blog and the time seems to have gone by quite fast as it always does and in the right order, which is always nice.

I started this blog as an outlet for my fantasies and the hope that if I started writing about things of a cross dressing nature then it might somehow help me to figure out myself and who I truly am inside. Is the dressing really a part of me? Could I do without it? Is it simply a sexual kink or something much deeper? Is this skirt too short? Is this skirt short enough?

Sadly, I haven't got round to detailing a lot of my past experiences like I wanted to but the blog has branched off in other ways I never thought it would. Looking around for stuff to write to help me get into the groove first of all, I started writing about my Amy Pond cosplay which seemed to be quite popular or items of clothing I liked. This lead to the Fashionista pieces which are mainly my observations of fashions and style during my travels, mainly on my journey to work in London. In an effort to continue posting I've also been detailing some of my favourite TG stories in Pink Library and why they do for me what they do. Often I have other pieces of work on or my inherent laziness sets in, for which I apologise.

Recently, I've been thinking of doing a cap blog again but may go down the Tumblr route. I'm also considering doing a Clara Oswald cosplay if I can find a red dress from somewhere although recently I've been feeling really self conscious about it again. Also, after my blog on Evie a couple of months ago it's nice to hear that, although the blog and indeed the persona are not going to be returning, Evie the wonderful, gorgeous and terribly naughty individual is alive and well.

Thanks for reading everyone. I hope it's been enjoyable and that I 'm still here doing it in another year.