New Years Eve Update

Good evening everyone,

Apologies to anyone still following me for not posting much during the year. I seem to have stopped after March and although I thought a lot about it, sometimes it takes a lot to get back doing it again after a time away.

This has been a nice year for me. I've started having some therapy sessions every few months and I've continued with my dressing. I'm pleased to say that I'm still getting good reactions from both men and women about it. Last month though i nearly got caught changing at work to go to a party after. Typical, over 8 floors and it would have taken me less than a minute to get out and someone clocked me. If she did though she certainly didn't say anything. I did start a new job this year though with the same company. Just a different level of stress really.

Recently I've been buying some cute tops too and some pinafore dresses. I've been trying to cut back though as i just feel I've been buying too much and i don't have the space but i just can't resist sometimes. I haven't done a lot of cosplay this year and that may be due to Nine Worlds not being on but I have put together a 13th Doctor outfit I'm looking forward to wearing next year and a friend of mine is doing me a plaid skirt suit like Cher from Clueless which has always been something i would love to wear. I've got a lot more ideas as well.

Christmas was a nice break and like many I watched the Gavin and Stacey
Christmas special and was pleased to hear Pamela note that crossdressing was 'perfectly normal'. I also have to say I loved Sonia's outfit and Stacey's pink dress.

I guess I've also struggled with loneliness a bit this year especially on New Year's Eve when it feels like the whole world is out at a party. I'm just sat here watching The Last Leg and drinking beer. So anyway, hope everyone had a great Christmas and New Year. Hopefully I'll start posting more again next year.

Some Dude, a Zip and a Changing Room

While in the last few years I feel I've grown in confidence every so often I get a bit of a knock and occasionally wonder why I continue to do this. Thankfully it seems my resolve is strong enough to keep on despite the knocks but today was one of the worst.

Now changing rooms have always been a sticking point for me and I've gradually built up my confidence in using them. Today I went into a vintage store and there was a male store assistant standing in front of the small changing rooms. I've had my eye on a black pleated mini skirt for a while and decided to try it on today. It depends on my mood sometimes how I approach a situation like this and I'm suprised I actually had the will to go up there with this dude in front but I've had largely positive experiences and London is quite understanding, so to speak. 

The upshot was I wasn't allowed to try on the skirt. Apparently they have a 'big problem'with men trying on women's clothes and noted that zips get busted by men trying them on. So in one way it a little comforting that there are so many out there but I felt a bit humiliated by this I tried to stick up for myself by saying that I knew my own size and wouldn't have wanted to try if I didn't. According to this guy he has more experience and he can see that it won't. Not wanting to get into an argument and to be honest not having any arguement to present I left the store.I also didn't want to have a row with some guy just doing his job and having worked with the public I know how trying it can be but I felt humiliated. To be fair I do sort of see his point especially with vintage clothes and it wasn't like I was banned form buying it but I'm sure the guy could still have handled the situation a bit better rather than basically tell me I was too fat to try something on and I don't think there are many who would want to try anything on, male or female, with some dude standing in the way. I don't know why I just didn't buy it untried. Damn changing rooms. 

Now like anyone I have fantasies of going back and saying something or maybe buying the skirt outright but I'm leaning towards never darkening their door again. Screw them I'll spend money elsewhere. Should I stand up a little more though? Not just for me but for those who are too embarrassed to? Not sure.

I feel a bit rubbish and humiliated tonight but I hope it will pass. I don't want this to stop me.  

The Week in Crossdressing #2

Well, there's been a couple of interesting stories this week.

Firstly, there was the annual Oscars ceremony this week which is always notable for the fashions the stars wear on the red carpet and this year actor Billy Porter decided to wear a gown coupled with a tuxedo jacket over the top which was designed by Christian Siriano. There's a wonderful interview with Billy here from the Vogue website which is where the below picture was taken from.

https://www.vogue.com/article/billy-porter-oscars-red-carpet-gown-christian-siriano

Photo Credit: Getty Images

I just love the fact that this has happened and at one one of the biggest awards ceremonies in the world. Visibility is so important these days and the more men are seen ripping up the fashion rulebook and embracing more feminine styles the more acceptable it will become. Women fought for the right to wear trousers and sadly not many men are prepared to do the same for skirts and dresses. It's why I'm proud to be more visible these days and if I can influence anyone or just nudge things forward at all in my short time here then I will be proud. Of course a man like Billy will probably do more than I ever could and hopefully he will inspire the young as I know this picture would have done to me in my youth but even today with how comfortable I am it's still nice to see. Meanwhile I was at least able to go to the cinema dressed last week which is another big step for me.

Secondly, and less so in the CD stakes, Prince Harry and Meghan Markle have announced that they want to raise their forthcoming baby as gender fluid. The news was swiftly denied but I guess it remains to be seen what will happen and how this idea may present itself. Perhaps by trying to get rid of the usual blues and pinks. I doubt we will go as far as seeing a royal Prince in a dress but you never know.

That's all the news that's fit to print, I'm Lois Lane.

Back For Another year

Hi everyone,

Well I had a few technical issues but hopefully I'm ok now and hope to start making posts a bit more regularly. Things haven't changed that much to be honest, bought a few more clothes including a red plaid skirt, pink striped top and some knee high boots.

So I never really thought of myself as a pink sort of gal before but I'm getting to like it. I think because it's so far from my usual style that it makes me feel like a different person. Sorry, that's about all I can muster about now but I wanted to say something.