It's been an up and down month for me.
Recently I was able to have a holiday for a week which was quite nice and the weather stayed well. I even bought a new necklace. I've not really bought any new clothes recently apart from some cosplay which I'm only half hoping to do at some point (if I can get one more bit). In fact I veer between all the stuff I want to do and just throwing in the towel. I never wanted to just buy stuff, wear it once and never wear it again. I know there are some outfits I'm tempted by but are a bit too revealing for me to wear to a convention.
In October I'll no longer be working from home which I'm a little sad about because I've enjoyed dressing up for it and sharing my photos online. Positive comments mean a lot but every so often, this week for example, I'm made aware of how much harder it is for acceptance in the wider world. I often come back to the idea of asking if I can wear dresses and skirts and to be honest I'm probably in the best position I could be having celebrated a big work anniversary but I don't know if I should do and if I even want to anymore. I'm not sure when I'll have the opportunity anymore as I rarely feel like it when I get in from work and at the weekend I often have to go out and even just for a short walk makes me a bit nervous. In fact I've become a little obsessed with the few moments I go out for a walk and how I look when I do.
